The Way We See Things Makes a Difference

Guess you really can't stop yourself to envy others, huh. No matter how nonchalant you make yourself to be, no matter how unconcerned you try to look in front of other people. Despite of all the efforts, you really can't fool your own heart, let alone suppress the bitterness of it.

You envy those who get better opportunities, or even opportunities that you wouldn't dream of having in the first place. Your friend gets married early, right after college graduation, with a Korean guy and they seem to lead a content life in Korea. Or another who already expects her second baby. And another who frequently travels overseas just because she has money. Your ex who's now in a relationship with a beautiful girl (prettier than you are) and that they might already talk about taking their relationship into something more serious. Engagement? Marriage? This friend who has settled down in one of the most expensive cities in the world and now has a job there. That friend who pursues education to America and seems to have fun most of the times (at least from the pictures on Facebook). Or your female cousin who is a popular brainy, excelled in drawing and playing guitar and singing and not to mention, has a combination of model-like figure because she's fond of swimming with a beautiful face. Or that cousin who has a successful career history and is still in the process of making it even more glimmering.

Suddenly you feel so stressed out, so frightened, insecure of your own future, you start having doubts all over and all these mounting doubts make you feel so little, so discouraged.

Well, now I'll be honest:
1. The above examples are actually based on real people... in my circle of friends.
2. Which is why... I have had these moments before. Feeling discouraged and all, stupidly comparing myself with others.

But it'll be never ending, you see, if you keep your eyes on them. On other people. No one didn't really tell me how I handle and manage these feelings; I guess I just figured out by my own at that time, that:
1. I can be awesome too!
2. If you have that so much time to feel envious of other people, why don't you use that time instead to look into yourself?
3. Because well, it IS your OWN life. Care about yours more! I think it is definitely alright to have a certain degree of egocentrism in us.

How we see things, will make a difference.