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Thursday, June 5, 2014

Invisible Cities by Italo Calvino


Title: Invinsible Cities
Author: Italo Calvino, with translator William Weaver
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Book description (taken from the back of my own copy):
In a garden sit the aged Kublai Khan and the young Marco Polo - Tartar emperor and Venetian traveler. Kublai Khan has sensed the end of his empire coming soon. Marco Polo diverts the emperor with tales of the cities he has seen in his travels around the empire: Cities and memory, cities and desire, cities and designs, cities and the dead, cities and the sky, trading cities, hidden cities. Soon it becomes clear that each of these fantastic places is really the same place.

“Of all tasks, describing the contents of a book is the most difficult and in the case of a marvelous invention like Invisible Cities, perfectly irrelevant” (Gore Vidal, New York Review of Books)

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This book. How I wish I hadn't had finished it, because now it has come to an end and there will be no more. (Of course I could reread it again).

I'm forever grateful that I have discovered this gem. That I have read this book. I wish I could tell you - I wish I could describe it, and I wish I could elaborate what is it that has made me so warm when I read it passage by passage, when I was made stunned by the lyrical language that makes up the entire prose, a tale after a tale, each is so delicious and like no other that I wish I could read it as slowly as I could, in a vain attempt to make it everlasting.

Hidden messages. A portrayal of a city and its people, their happiness, sadness, foolishness, as well as grief, behaviors, desires, principles, pasts, memories, virtues, beliefs. A human being. A society. A community. A civilization. All are woven beautifully, almost like a drug, sedating and addictive, under the beautiful narration of Marco Polo the Italian merchant traveller, whose eyes have rejoiced in feast of the sight of the world and its cities. It is a fiction, not a biographical account indeed; yet the imaginary conversation between Marco Polo and the conqueror Kublai Khan could in fact turn out as real as it could be, regardless of everything.

During my childhood to adolescent years, I was the kind of girl who found simple happiness in conjuring up imaginary cities with its own traits and cultures and buildings, with a mix of fantasy: A quaint, charming little town in the riverside with potted flowers and wind chimes everywhere - and if someone took a stroll around the town square he could hear diverse chiming notes of melody in the air. Then I also imagined a village deep in the pine woods where the villagers - each family - lived inside a round, big tree trunk so wide in diameter (so their houses were actually built inside a tree) and each room was so thick with pine and earth and wilderness scents. There was also a city which spires and buildings and towers and walls were made of crystals that gleamed like pearls in the dusk, each shone in a different shade of color - brightened, glowed at a certain interval of time, like a pulse.

Perhaps it was because I played a lot of of RPG games. Most of them, usually, require you (the character) to travel in a quest from one village to the next, from one small town in a valley to a harbor town, from one big city on a rolling plateau to another big city in the middle of dessert. Even to the end of the world. I was so fascinated by these virtual villages/towns/cities that I could only see from the screen, and you won't believe me how the current me can easily reconstruct the very images of my favorite cities in games I played in the past so vividly.

(For example, Lindblum. And each of its district)

or Ritardando from Eternal Sonata

Which is one of the very basic reasons why I felt strongly compelled to pick up this book.

Marco Polo would tell you of a vibrant city with a multitude network of turquoise, sparkling canals and beautiful hanging bridges and balustrades. He would tell you of a city that builds an underground city just beneath the surface - which is occupied by the dead people of the city. He would also speak to you of a city that is built based on the blueprint of stars in the night sky and glimmering constellations.

Fret not, he won't tell you about that city's population or its statistics. He won't speak of its criminal rate.

Only that - as I've mentioned earlier - behind the images and its prosaic language, hidden messages and secrets are lurking, embossed with a thoughtful philosophy. An underlying conclusion. The visceral, inlaid meaning behind the obscured veil that, if you seek it out, it will be an unforgettable experience that is so personal and its effect is kind of long-lasting.

It's what beyond the surface. Which means, there's an element of illusory, contradictory, ambiguity, concealment, analogy, resemblance, surprise...  but then again, each of them makes up for what you call reality, without any exclusion. Because they are part of reality. They are part of civilization. They are part of life.

I'm sorry if it is confusing, but I guess you should read it yourself.

But I'll give some example, taken from a number of passages of the book:

"When a man rides a long time through wild regions he feels the desire for a city. Finally he comes to Isidora, a city where the buildings have spiral staircases encrusted with spiral seashells, where perfect telescopes and violins are made, where the foreigner hesitating between two women always encounters a third, where cockfights degenerate into bloody brawls among the bettors. He was thinking of all these things when he desired a city. Isidora, therefore, is the city of his dreams: with one difference. The dreamed-of city contained him as a young man; he arrives at Isidora in his old age. In the square there is the wall where the old men sit and watch the young go by; he is seated in a row with them. Desires are already memories.” 
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"The city appears to you as a while where no desire is lost and of which you are a part, and since it enjoys everything you do not enjoy, you can do nothing but inhabit this desire and be content. Such is the power, sometimes called malignant, sometimes benign, that Anastasia, the treacherous city, possesses; if for eight hours a day you work as a cutter of agate, onyx, chrysoprase, your labor which gives form to desire takes from desire its form, and you believe you are enjoying Anastasia wholly when you are only its slave."  
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"In the center of Fedora, that gray stone metropolis, stands a metal building with a crystal globe in every room. Looking into each globe, you see a blue city, the model of a different Fedora. These are the forms the city could have taken if, for one reason or another, it had not become what we see today...

On the map of your empire, O Great Khan, there must be room both for the big, stone Fedora and the little Fedoras in glass globes. Not because they are equally real, but because all are only assumptions. The one contains what is accepted as necessary when it is not yet so; the others, what is imagined as possible and, a moment later, is possible no longer."
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"With cities, it is as with dreams: everything imaginable can be dreamed, but even the most unexpected dream is a rebus that conceals a desire or, its reverse, a fear. Cities, like dreams, are made of desires and fears, even if the thread of their discourse is secret, their rules are absurd, their perspectives deceitful, and everything conceals something else."
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“A description of Zaira as it is today should contain all Zaira’s past. The city, however, does not tell its past, but contains it like the lines of a hand, written in the corners of the streets, the gratings of the windows, the banisters of the steps, the antennae of the lightning rods, the poles of the flags, every segment marked in turn with scratches, indentations, scrolls.” 
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"You take delight not in a city's seven or seventy wonders, but in the answer it gives to a question of yours."
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"Elsewhere is a negative mirror. The traveler recognizes the little that is his, discovering the much he has not had and will never have." 
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"Also in Raissa, city of sadness, there runs an invincible thread that binds one living being to another for a moment, then unravels, then is stretched again between moving points as it draws new and rapid patterns so that at every second the unhappy city contains a happy city unaware of its own existence."
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Again, I'm so grateful for having found this book. I never heard of Mr. Italo Calvino before, and I never heard people talk about him and his excellent works. At least most people, readers or bloggers, when talk about classics, would notably mention, for example, Austen, The Bronte sisters, Tolstoy, Thomas Hardy, Dante Alighieri, Machiavelli, Dostoevsky, Kafka, Woolf, Proust, or Hemingway. I don't know why or how, I never encountered the name "Italo Calvino" before.

But I guess, it was only me. Because I hadn't specifically looked for a book that belongs to Italian Literature. Nonetheless, I encountered Mr. Calvino's name through a blogger who remembered that she'd read this book with pure thrill - something along the line - she described it, so shortly, in such a way that made me curious enough to look for it on Goodreads.

My own thoughts, my own attempts to describe this book are probably, in the end, insufficient, unclear and incoherent. Or perhaps they lack of quality and do not even do justice. Or perhaps, too exaggerating. Having said that, I admit I'm still uncertain myself, as I'm not confident enough to define it.

It's just that, I feel deeply moved by this book.

And you see, there are various talented artists out there who have attempted to depict Calvino's Invisible Cities:



Awesome artworks of Invisible Cities, by David Fleck


Invisible Cities by Beatrice Coron



Thekla City by Janice


Olinda City by Shu Okada


Valdrada City by Shu Okada

Invinsible Cities by Lisel Jane Ashlock


Ersilia City by Tesseract

They are awesome, aren't they?


Thursday, December 5, 2013

Thoughts on No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai



Why... this is a remarkably dark and depressing story of a man who is literally horrified of a human being, who dreads the very notion of society. He is Oba Yozo. He is a man who feels like he doesn't belong - he feels disconnected to other people.

“All I feel are the assaults of apprehension and terror at the thought that I am the only one who is entirely unlike the rest. It is almost impossible for me to converse with other people. What should I talk about, how should I say it? - I don't know.” 

“I am convinced that human life is filled with many pure, happy, serene examples of insincerity, truly splendid of their kind-of people deceiving one another without (strangely enough) any wounds being inflicted, of people who seem unaware even that they are deceiving one another.” 

“I have always shook with fright before human beings. Unable as I was to feel the least particle of confidence in my ability to speak and act like a human being, I kept my solitary agonies locked in my breast. I kept my melancholy and my agitation hidden, careful lest any trace should be left exposed. I feigned an innocent optimism; I gradually perfected myself in the role of the farcical eccentric.” 

“As long as I can make them laugh, it doesn’t matter how, I’ll be alright. If I succeed in that, the human beings probably won’t mind it too much if I remain outside their lives. The one thing I must avoid is becoming offensive in their eyes: I shall be nothing, the wind, the sky.” 

It strikes me a great deal how familiar and understandable his thoughts and perceptions are - despite the fact that later on in the story he is claimed as a madman. The complexity of the details depicted from his very narration is not even foreign, his acquired concept of life is explicable and perceivable. Why he does certain things - hiding, escaping, running away, pretending, losing hopes all too early, torturing his own soul, committing a suicide, to convincing himself again and again that he doesn't deserve happiness - he makes one atrocious choice after another yet the rationale behind his godawful choices that condemns his life to a living hell - heck it does make sense. Yes, the most horrible thing of all, it does make sense, and I could unsurprisingly relate to his thoughts.

“I myself spent the whole day long deceiving human beings with my clowning. I have not been able to work much up much concern over the morality prescribed in textbooks of ethics under the name as “righteousness.” I find it difficult to understand the kind of human being who lives, or who is sure he can live, purely, happily, serenely while engaged in deceit. Human beings never did teach me that abstruse secret. If I had only known that one thing I should never have had to dread human beings so, nor should I have opposed myself to human life, nor tasted such torments of hell every night.” 

“Unhappiness. There are all kinds of unhappy people in the world. I suppose it would be no exaggeration to say that the world is composed entirely of unhappy people. But those people can fight their unhappiness with society fairly and squarely, and society for its part easily understands and sympathizes with such struggles. My unhappiness stemmed entirely from my own vices, and I had no way of fighting anybody.” 

The saddest thing of all, is even until the end of the story, he still doesn't know - let alone experience - the slightest bit of what happiness is. Or perhaps, fail to notice it. He has fallen too deep in his own mind-made chasm and the society doesn't even help him, or cushion his fall.

“Mine has been a life of much shame. I can't even guess myself what it must be to live the life of a human being.” 

“I thought, 'I want to die. I want to die more than ever before. There’s no chance now of a recovery. No matter what sort of thing I do, no matter what I do, it’s sure to be a failure, just a final coating applied to my shame. That dream of going on bicycles to see a waterfall framed in summer leaves—it was not for the likes of me. All that can happen now is that one foul, humiliating sin will be piled on another, and my sufferings will become only the more acute. I want to die. I must die. Living itself is the source of sin.” 

“The world, after all, was still a place of bottomless horror. It was by no means a place of childlike simplicity where everything could be settled by a simple then-and-there decision.” 

This is a brilliantly thought-provoking book. Deep, oppressively daunting, but interesting all the same.

I just really want to hug Yozo.

5 of 5 stars.

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Friday, March 29, 2013

UVERworld - The Over



I love this song very, very, very much, so much so that I think my heart will break and explode and shatter and then I'll die - it's such a heartbreaking song, and I literally cried when I read the translation. It still pains me even now, every time I hear this song, because it is just so sad, yet emotionally beautiful. Takuya always writes powerful, meaningful lyrics - he really has this talent. The music also WINS! Kudos to UVERworld. Keep making great music!

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UVERworld – THE OVER
Lyrics: TAKUYA∞
Composition: UVERworld




Saigo made usotsuite madee hitori ni narou to suru nda ne
Nanimo kamo iya ni natte shimau hodo jibun no koto wo shirisugite iru kara
Itsukara ka boku wa mou nigeyou to shiteta

Nanimo nai no ni to ni kaku zutto kanashikute tamaranakatta
Konna jidai de ari no mama de ikitekeru wake nante nakatta shi
Taisetsu na kimi dake wa ushinaitakunai kara hontou no jibun wo kakushite mata tsukuro tte yuku
Boku wa itsuka ushinatte shimau wakatteru kara modokashii yo

TEREBI no naka no haiyuu ya daifugou ya BIGGU SUTAA nara
Kimi wo manzoku sasereru darou soshite shiawase ni mo suru darou
Demo boku wa kimi wo omou shika nai boku wa kimi wo omou shika nai
Tsutaeyou to shite sora wo nagame tachidomaru
Kasa wo sasuka douka mayou hodo no ame omoikiri no nai sa wa boku no you datta

Akirame nagara ikite yuku mainichi wa nani wo shite mo kanashii dake datta
Dare yori mo aisaretai no ni hitori ni narou to shite ita koto mo
Taisetsu na kimi no tame datta yo

Tsutaetai kimochi wa afurete kuru no ni kotoba ni sureba suru hodo chigatte yuku
Sore ga modokashii ndayo

Ichiban shiawase negatte ichiban kanashimasetesou de
Jibun ni jishin ga nakatta dekiru dake hitori de ikite kita
Demo kimi dake ga hanasenai naze kimi dake ga hanasenai
Hitori ja nai to rikai shite shimatta kanjou wo
Osaekirenai to mitometa toki ni naze namida ga deta no ka wa wakaranai kedo
Yoku mireba aozora mo ao isshoku ja nai
Sono fukuzatsusa wa kokoro wo utsushita you da

Mirai he mukau BOOTO ni notte OORU de kogu boku kara sureba ushiro he susumu
Boku ni wa susumu saki wa mienai demo kimi ga mukai ni suwatte mite ite kureru nara
Doko ni tadoritsuitatte tadoritsukanakatta to shite
Mirai wo souzou sureba daitai shiawase datta
Aa suki dayo kimi mo boku wo erabu nara mou hanasou to shinai yo

Toshi wo tori hi ga tatte kotoba sae ushinatte
Futari sugoshita hibi wo kimi ga wasurete shimatta toki mo
Kawarazu te wo nigirishime kawatte yuku kimi wo sasaete
Saigo made kokoro de taiwa shite mamori yasashisa wo ataete iku yo
Itsumademo kimi wo omou darou saigo made omoinuku darou
Hitori ja nai to kanjisasete miseru yo

Donna ni kotoba no imi wo shirabete mo dore hodo tsuyoku IMEEJI shite mite mo
Hitorikiri no mama ja shirenakatta
Ano sagashiteta ai wa kimi sono mono nanda

Daremo ga jibun wo koerareru OVER
Hitori ni nante sase ya shinai yo OVER

Saa subete wo koeru OVER

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TRANSLATION


Until the end, I even had to lie, trying to become alone.
Everything became unbearable because I knew too much about myself.
Since when, I wonder, have I been trying to run away?

Even though it was nothing, the sadness I felt was intolerable.
In this age, the truth was I had nothing to live for.
I don't want to lose you, who are so important to me, so I conceal my true self and try fix it, continuing forward.
But I know I'll lose you one day, that's why it's frustrating.

If I were an actor, a multi-millionaire or a big star in the television
That would satisfy you right? And it would make you happy right?
But I only think of you I only think of you
Trying to tell you these feelings, I stop and look at the sky.
The uncertainty of using an umbrella in a light rain, in a way it mirrors myself.

While resigning going on living everyday, anything I did was painful.
More than anyone else, I want to be loved, but it was for your sake that I tried to become alone.

These feelings I want to tell you are overflowing, yet the more I try to put into words, the more it gets mistaken.
That's why is so frustrating.

I wish for nothing but happiness, but it seems to make me the saddest all together.
I didn't had confidence, if I could I would live alone.
But I can't let go of you, why I can't I let go of you?
But this unrestrainable feeling of understanding that I'm not alone
When I realized it, why did I start to cry, I wonder?
If you look clearly, the blue sky isn't blue at all.
This complexity, in a way it is projected in my heart.

Riding a boat towards the future, I move backwards with each push of the oar.
I can't see behind me as I advance, but if you sit facing me and watch as we move together,
wherever we are, our struggles won't seem like struggles.
If we imagine the future, I can only see happiness.
I love you so much, if you choose me I'll never let you go.

As the days of the year pass, and words lose their meaning,
and when you also forget our time together,
Taking your hand as usual, supporting you even as you continue changing,
Having a discussion with our hearts until the end, giving you a gentile protection
I'll think of you forever, I'll think of you until the end.
I'll make you feel like you are not alone.

No mater how much I analyze words, or how strong an image I imagine,
I never knew what it was like to be alone.
The love that I have been searching for is you.

OVER

I'll overcome anyone OVER
Don't leave me all alone OVER

Now, I'll overcome everything OVER


Lyrics and Translation by: OneMelody @ jpopasia

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Note: I'll die the second time if Takuya wrote this based on his own experience. Curse that lucky girl.



Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Dedicated to Joe Hisaishi

"Oriental Wind" is one of my favorite Hisaishi's pieces ever. I particularly love the Melodyphony's version. 



His songs always inspire me. A lot. So, I made this drawing as a token of appreciation to one of the greatest composers alive. This single drawing may not be enough to convey my deepest admiration to him, but... I've tried anyway ;)

Dedicated to Joe Hisaishi. 



I know the lines are rough, not as smooth as I'd like to draw it.... 




But I'm quite satisfied with the result =)

Dear Hisaishi-san, please keep inspiring the world!

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Short Review: Railsea by China Miéville



This book wins. Totally. Mieville brings fantasy (or steampunk? dystopia?sci-fi?) to a whole new level, & I can't believe it takes me so long to read this book. Exploration. A quest to find self-identity. To jump into the unknown. Adventure. A world in which towns/cities are separated by railsea. Endless tangles of rails stretching from one point of horizon to another, with moles & other giant beasts unimaginable lurking underneath, underground. & there's a chase of philosophies too. Train & profession of many kinds. Moler, salvage-scrabblers, pirates, navy, & wrecker. Myths. The edge of the world. Angels. Heaven (opps). 



There, I throw some words that might (might, yes, but you should just read anyway) conjure up the faintest(?) idea of what you would expect to find in this book. 
With great main & supporting characters, what could you ask more? The world building is one of the most amazing, impressive, prominent, distinguished - one of the best I've ever encountered (in a novel/movie/game).
I'm a fan. Really.