I
turned off the lamp. I drew the curtain open. I sat behind the window sill. I
hugged my knees tightly. Fat drops of water were still falling from the open
sky. They were splattering the window, brushing off the dirt on its blur
surface. Streaks of lightning appeared soundlessly across the pitch black of
darkness that looked awefully plain without the gleaming stars decorating on it.
Stars. If I had known earlier that they would never to be seen again from the
city that I came to loathe, I would have cherished those awkward moments when I
laid my back against the cold floor in my old house, lifting my finger upward,
tracing the sheet of the sky – acting as if I could poke the stars.
I
closed my eyes. I buried my face, didn’t even bother to set aside the loose
strands of my hair. There was no light in the room. My glow in the dark stars
attached on the ceiling didn’t even shine. I was enveloped in ultimate
darkness. But abstract pictures came alive behind my eyelids. Outside, tires were
slicing across puddles of water. The sound of engines and cars honking were
audible, only to trail off and disappear in the distance. Inside, a subtle hum coming
from the air conditioner filled the small room.
I
was in my own world. This world, was quiet. A solitude, for I was the only
occupant. I actually wish this tranquility wouldn’t come to an end since the
idea of hiding myself from the rest of the world has become essentially
tempting. I don’t have to deal with people. I don’t have to force out a talk, I
don’t have to fake a curve of smile. I could care less about others. It’ll be
only myself. Seems like, involving myself in the emotional twist of others’ are
just too burdening.
Sitting
by the window, eavesdropping the background music of falling raindrops and
splashing water, blanketed by the soothing darkness, shielded from the blinding
light, doing absolutely nothing – did give a piece of something comforting to
my mind. It was cooling down from overheating.
Well,
I wouldn’t mind being interrupted by casual sips of chocolate or soy milk... as
it wasn’t really the time for a bottle of beer or a glass of whiskey.
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